I can't even imagine how many ideas and compositions I've let go. Suddenly I would find a musical idea or a concept to practice enter my mind. The excitement would begin to build and then as quickly as the idea emerged it would subside. Not because I lost my train of thought, but because a little voice would begin to take charge.
"Why bother, no one really wants to hear this. You are wasting your time! Isn't this just a hobby anyways. You need to focus on making a serious contribution instead of pursuing a dead end endeavor."
Initially I would let these thought pass. As the demands of everyday life continued to build, then I found it difficult to let them pass. It has pushed me to the point to where I would begin to write a new song and then just put the guitar down and feel no reason to continue.
This little voice can demolish the amazing gift we have for creativity. Maybe it is our internal compass guiding us to step away for a moment. Then again, it could very well be the internal battle we all fight no matter our profession. One in which we need to prevail so as to communicate to the best of our abilities and make the most of this life.
